California Dreamin' Special Edition Paperback by Kent Saffron A

Author:Kent, Saffron A. [Kent, Saffron A.]
Language: eng
Format: epub
ISBN: 9798396965188
Amazon: B0C6W4FGYB
Goodreads: 172223281
Publisher: Independently Published
Published: 2023-06-02T07:00:00+00:00

I remember the day Fallon was born.

I remember the panic I’d felt. The panic at the first few contractions. The panic at finding out that my baby girl was coming. I was overdue actually so it shouldn’t have been such a shock but still.

No one ever tells you about that, about the level of panic you’re going to feel. Or maybe they do but you don’t really get it.

You don’t really feel prepared for it, the moment your child enters this world.

You don’t really feel prepared for the fear, the pain, the chaos in the hospital room. Nothing can prepare you for the sheer joy, the pure freaking love in your heart when the tiny human being you made is writhing around, kicking up her legs, crying her lungs out in the hands of doctors and nurses.

Not to mention the craving you feel to hold her yourself, and when they give her to you the panic—again that emotion—you feel is immense, more intense than anything else you’ve ever felt before.

But most of all, nothing can prepare you for the kind of love you feel, the kind of love you fall into, with the man you’ve loved for years already.

No, nothing can prepare you for the moment your husband holds your baby for the first time.

As it is, I remember crying in that moment.

I cried a lot that day, screamed a lot too. And when Simon held Fallon for the first time, my waterworks wouldn’t stop.

By that time, we were both exhausted.

It had been a long delivery, through which I screamed all the obscenities that I knew, and all at my stoic Ice King of a husband.

And well, that was the day—among other days in the past twenty years of our marriage—when I’d really tested his patience and broke his legendary control into pieces.

Simon was upset.

More than that, he was terrified and in distress. I swear a couple of new lines had emerged around his mouth and his forehead between rushing me to the hospital and the moment our baby girl was born.

All of that went away though, all of his stress and panic like mine, when he held Fallon in his arms for the first time.

I saw it. I saw it with my own eyes.

The way his strong but exhausted frame softened up. The way he made a cradle out of his arms so he could hold her in the crook of them.

The way his gray eyes—the ones that remind me of rainy skies—brimmed with tears even though his lips were stretched out in a big smile.

I remember the look of wonder on his king-like face when his daughter grabbed his finger in her small fist.

I remember it all.

I remember my husband falling in love with someone else, a tiny human that we’d created and that made me fall in love with him even more, with wide-open arms.

I also remember the day when I had an inkling that my baby girl had fallen in love with someone else too.

A silent, lonely boy named Dean.

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